If I had a wish

I wish I could duplicate myself physically, so that I could have the capacity to keep up with my mind. 

I don't know if it's a product of ADHD. There's just so much that I would like to do. However, there just aren't enough hours in a day.

I wish further, that I had had this grasp of who I am, and what I want, when I was younger. It may very well have brought forth a different result. I might not need to wish to duplicate myself  as I would have started on some of my desired projects many years ago. 

It is not like I was not ambitious in my youth. My exposure was limited and my resources even more so. I had a desire to be educated. But it just wasn't possible at the time. I often find myself wondering where that desire even came from. I attended a government school in a poverty stricken town, with other students whose parents too, were just trying to put food on the table at the end of the day. The majority of our teachers displayed little to no interest and the students mirrored their efforts. 

I recall being bored to tears in most of my classes. It was hard for me to focus if things needed to be repeated and if the lesson didn't move on at a reasonable pace. This in turn would result in me not listening at all, as I  would have found myself something else to become occupied with. Often, something no adult would approve of. My marks were average. My mother never seemed to care. At least that's how I perceived it. She'd often say that as long as I pass, or do better than the rest (if my marks were above average) then that was "good". The problem is, the average was pretty poor, so the bar was never set too high. And when I did do well, no one really seemed to notice. I was called the "smart" one. But that was it. I was never encouraged otherwise, or given any tools to expand my mind. So, as an inquisitive child and adolescent with too much time on my hands and nothing to direct or focus my attention on, I often found myself getting into situations that, well, that kids should not be getting into...

Anyway. If I knew better. If I had been guided by someone. Maybe, things would have been different now.

That being said, I am quiet happy where I am now. I took the scenic route but I found my soul mate and if I'd done anything different in my life I might not have. And I am aware that the concept of a "soul mate" is flawed... fantastical. But I have had the misfortune of getting into relationships with other people and then just meeting, literally, everyone else that I've met. And yes, I can say with certainty, no one is a better fit for me. 

So this brings me back to my first wish, which appears to be more convenient for my current circumstances, than the second alternative to it. So I must make a point of remembering this, should I ever happen upon a genie. I wish for the power to duplicate, my duplicates to act independently and as one simultaneously, and to be able to recall my duplicates back into myself, to combine my collective achievements. 

I think it's a good wish :)